updating xanga because freakin live journal is always in read-only mode whenever i want to update.

Actually, this is pointless because I have nothing to say.  Well i do, but whatever.  just talk to me, and ill tell you about my life.

go ahead, say it julie:
naive, naive, little Nikita

The world has disappointed me.  A lot.  But I guess thats just part of the growing up process.  This is the way things are supposed to be?  My vision is soo warped.

I'm so disappointed.  I thought I cared.  And then I found out the truth.  All this time you've been jealous of me, and here I was trying to make things better.  Then I realized, wait a minute, you should be jealous of me.  You might be pretty, but you know what slut?  I've got something all the boys want that you can never ever have again.  As far as I'm concerned, there is nothing you, or your family, or your friends can say or do to me to make me or my family feel bad.  I feel so superior to you.

Currently Playing Lost & Gone Forever By Guster fa fa, best goddam base line ever. see related

check out my live journal: d1scolemonade .

i need to bitch.

Currently Watching Napoleon Dynamite By Jon Heder, Jon Gries, Efren Ramirez see related

Napoleon Dynamite is so hilarious.  I think what I love the most about it is that it kills brain cells.  Everyone needs to kill some brain cells sometimes.

So about my new philosophy on life: CHANGE IS GOOD.

I'm really excited for college, regardless of where I go.  i think getting in somewhere was encouraging, so I have some hope for my future.  I'm also really optimistic about the next few months.  I think it'll be great to spend this time with the 'crew' and treasure these moments.  But i'm really just ready for the next phase of my life.  It'll be nice to meet new people.

I hate having hours of sleep on break, and then coming to school and getting 4 hours a nite again.  its such a pain in the penis. 

In other news, life really is pretty good, i have no complaints, except for the occasional moral dilemna.  I never thought i'd find myself in such a situation, but it really sucks, and i'd like for it to go away.  But i'm sure this is just some learning experience that I have to roll with.  So, bring it, I suppose.

Enough rambling.  I'm gonna get some sleep.  Excited for Friday, as well as the FOUR DAY WEEKEND after exams.  143 days left of school.  sweetness.

nite.

Currently Reading The Canterbury Tales (Penguin Classics) By Geoffrey Chaucer, Nevill Coghill see related

i feel obligated to update.  not because i've had some super life changing experience.  or that i'm in love and need to shout from the mountain-top.  or that i got this beautiful pink cashmere sweater for christmas(which, incidentally, i did)  but just because. 

break is going well.  i've been spending a lot of time catching up with people who i haven't talked to in aaaages.  or because they have 'accidentally' blocked me on their buddy list (ahem ahem)

am i the only one who really doesn't enjoy spending time with her family that much?  I dunno, maybe its a phase or something, but I feel like my family and I just don't get along, and can't spend time together.  My dad is on christmas call, which bites ass because he's at the hospital all day and we can't really spend much 'family time' without my daddy.  My brother is going through this really pissy pre-pubescent phase.  He's 13.  I want his voice to change and for him to start liking girls, so I can actually relate to him.  He's being really annoying, and in this 'its fun to annoy my sister, and then proceed to beat the shit out of her' phase.  He thinks I'm trying too much to be his parent, I think.  Well, its because he's being too much of a kid.  Perhaps I'm being to harsh on him.  Any input? 

Then my mom is on her "my child is leaving me for college, i'm so lonely.  My husband works too much, i'm so lonely.  My son is a being pissy, It makes me mad.  I want to go to India but i feel guilty leaving my family" thing.  Thankfully, she's going to India in January for a few weeks, so she better get it all out of her system.

I love the snow.  I really do.  I love to ski.  I've been doing it since I was three (ooh, rhyme.) And sledding/snowball fights/etc. are so so much fun.  But this snow came at a lousy time.  First, it came after school was out, so we didn't even get a snow day.  Then the snowplow people don't actually come up our street, which, if you've been to my house, is disaster.  We have two feet of snow on this giant hill, and its so dangerous to drive down because it's all icy.  Then, my driveway is so huge, and everytime we shoveled, the snow kept coming down.  Finally we gave up and called a snow-plow guy to come do it, but he did a half-assed job and ended up shoving all the snow in front of my garage door.  There is an eight foor pile of snow behind my car.  If i want to leave the house on my own(if my parents will let me drive down the damn hill,) I have to somehow move that shit pile.

I'm not really in the Christmas spirit this year.  As someone so kindly pointed out, its because i'm not Christian.  Which may be true.  But I always used to enjoy it.  I dunno, a lot of people really aren't feeling Christmassy this year.  it just doesn't seem that special. 

So today, I need to finish this app, and then this other app, and then hopefully go sledding.  Erin said she'd come help me shovel the pile of snow, so that I can leave the house.  That was nice of her.

Anywho, I hope all of you had a wonderful holiday.

peace on earth, joy to the world, happy christmas, merry new year

bah humbug